Another ''New'' Life

So I screwed up big time last semester.

They started talking behind my back.

Some back-stabbed. Changed the whole story and make me the only guilty one. 

I was alone.

Got depressed.

Cried the whole night.

Woke up the next day, not being able to control my tears, eyes all swollen.

Went to college, tried to control myself but I failed.

Someone cared enough to talk to me about it. 

I was fine. 

***

It was Finals week.

I studied.

Studied.

Studied.

Someone made a joke that I'm gonna fail. 

Asshole. I thought in my mind.

Sat for exam.

Got out of the exam hall with full confidence.

***

Still alone.

Socialised. A lot.

Hoping that my pain would come to an end.

It didn't.

***

Diploma : Second Year.
First day of college.

I realised the stares.

Felt like people still talked behind my back.

Acted to be ignorant.

I was quiet. 

They never stopped.

It rained heavily.

I waited.

It never stopped.

Finally took out my umbrella. It was broken.

Walked. 

Realised that my shoes worn out.

Tired. Sad.

Slept heavily in bus.

Got out.

Bag fell down. It was torn. Worn out too, it seems.

Talked to sister on skype.

''God's giving you a sign that you have to start a new life''

I used the umbrella, shoes and bag since forever in college.

Yes. I smiled to myself. : ) 

***

Results : Finally achieved 3.7 GPA.

I was happy. Overwhelmed. Posted on Facebook. Screamed in joy.

But the happiness didn't last.

They called me show-off.

***

What can I say?

What can I do?

All I need is a quote as a guide to my life.
So I said to myself.

Ignorance.
Is  BLISS.